okay..

I’m not okay, alright? I’m just not. I’m going to go to school and laugh with my friends and do my schoolwork and then I’m going to go home and have a snack and mess about a bit and do some of my homework then have dinner and do whatever else I’m going to do and then I’m going to go to bed. And all the while I’m going to be pretending I’m okay, telling myself that I’m okay, because that’s what I do; I pretend that I’m okay when I’m really not okay, and if it shows and someone asks if I’m okay then I’m going to tell them that I’m okay. Because I’m just really, really, not okay.